Scared

22 Nov

Ben scares me at times, he always has done when I think about it.

He could be a kind, caring, loving guy. Thoughtful, attentive and made me laugh. Then there were/are the times when he downright scares me. He’s a soldier trained to kill. He has killed. Since he was 16 he’s killed probably 20, 30, more people, he used to keep a tally – I tried to block it out.

He knew he was more powerful than me – ok I can lift hay bales/bags of saw dust around easily and played rugby for over 10 years, but I always knew he’d always be the more powerful one – the dominant one if he chose to be.  Continue reading

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Friends, acquaintances to strangers

12 Oct

The last 24 hours in work have been quite possibly the shitest 24 hours in my job so far for me. Admittedly it’s not been helped by having a cold which developed into a chest infection, and still feeling the effects of the last meeting with Ben.

At one point this morning, I sat at my desk, the phone rang this morning and it was one of the other Directors. I nearly cried down the phone to him. The more he asked if I was ok, the more I wanted to cry. I had to keep lying and saying it’s just the cold.  Continue reading

Another bruise to try and hide

11 Oct

Ben came round ther other day to drop off the last of my things that I’d left at his.

I tried to be polite. I tried to have a conversation with him. He was in one of his moods, where you can’t agree with him without a row, you can’t disagree with him without a row. It’s one of those times you just have to keep your chats short and sweet. It didn’t work, I’ve been off work sick with a chest infection so didn’t have the energy to fight him.  Continue reading

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Moving on

10 Sep

Imagine that

  • she’s blocked him
  • he’s blocked her

Yet he’s still unable to let go and:

  • gets someone to watch her twitter
  • watches her twitter from a fake account
  • asks questions about her to an innocent person now stuck in the middle – fine for him to ask questions about her to other people but not her

Then he wonders why she tells her friends she’s moved on yet now wary that he’s still watching her every move.

 

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